I Need Your Help

Summary

In this heartfelt video, Alice in Wonder1and opens up about her recent absence from YouTube and the struggles she faces as a content creator. Despite her channel's declining views, she remains thankful for the support of her community of 70,000 subscribers. Alice discusses her theories on why her viewership has decreased, including algorithm changes and seasonal patterns. She also speaks about her challenges with staying motivated, the need for constructive feedback from her audience, and her plans to revitalize her content and channel strategy. Alice invites her viewers to join her upcoming live stream celebrating her birthday and reaffirms her commitment to bouncing back stronger than ever. She encourages viewers to provide feedback and support her through memberships as she navigates her YouTube journey.

Highlights

• Alice has had a tough few months, with views declining despite increased content quality. 💪
• She speculates the drop may be due to algorithm changes or seasonal shifts in audience habits. 🤔
• Alice took a break in April to regroup and strategize her content and is eager to try new things. 🌟
• She's hosting a birthday live stream on May 4th (May 3rd for most viewers due to time zones). 🎂
• Alice calls for feedback from her viewers to help shape future content. 🗣️
• She shares her endeavors to identify issues and remains determined to bounce back. 🔄

Key Takeaways

• Alice appreciates her community of 70,000 supporters who have made her content creation journey possible. 🙌
• She's facing demoralizing dips in her view counts and seeks constructive feedback from her audience. 📉
• Alice speculates that changes in YouTube algorithms or seasonal habits could affect her views. 🤔
• She's been feeling boxed into certain content types and desires to make a broader range of videos. 🎥
• Alice's birthday live stream is happening soon, and she's inviting everyone to join the celebration. 🎉
• Despite challenges, Alice is optimistic and motivated to improve her channel's success. 💪

Overview

Alice in Wonder1and has opened up about her recent struggles with declining views on her YouTube channel, despite producing higher quality and more engaging content. She shares her theories about why this might be happening, including potential changes in YouTube algorithms or seasonal changes in viewer habits. This has been a challenging period for Alice, who in turn realized the importance of stepping back and re-strategizing.

Despite these challenges, Alice has not lost her fighting spirit. She's determined to take control by devising new content plans and looking for opportunities to collaborate with others. She has re-engaged with her audience by planning a special live stream to celebrate her birthday on May 4th, and she encourages her audience to participate and provide feedback to help her channel thrive.

Alice ended her heartfelt message by reassuring her audience that she's not giving up. She expresses her gratitude for their ongoing support, inviting them to continue supporting her through memberships. Alice draws strength from her community, showing a resilient attitude and expressing her intent to bounce back stronger than ever.

Chapters

• 00:00 - 00:30: Introduction and Channel Update The chapter, titled 'Introduction and Channel Update,' is presented by Alice Wonderland, a popular YouTuber and trans woman. She addresses her audience of 70,000 subscribers, expressing gratitude for their support, which has allowed her to pursue YouTube as a full-time career after quitting her job. Alice acknowledges her absence for the month of April and emphasizes a personal connection with her audience by speaking candidly. This openness is a departure from her usual character, demonstrating the significance she places on her relationship with her fans.
• 00:30 - 02:30: Struggles with Views and Motivation The chapter titled 'Struggles with Views and Motivation' delves into the challenges faced by a content creator who has experienced a significant decline in video views despite improving content quality and production efforts. This downturn has been devastating for the creator's motivation, as they are unable to pinpoint the reason behind the decreased viewership. The chapter highlights the emotional impact of this struggle and the creator's plea for support from their audience.
• 02:30 - 05:30: Theories on View Decline The chapter discusses theories on why there might be a decline in viewership. The narrator considers the possibility that the audience might simply be losing interest in her content, which is a typical concern for content creators fearing they 'fell off.' She indicates uncertainty and expresses a proactive desire to improve, seeking feedback on what the audience wants to see more of and what they dislike. However, the narrator senses that the issue might not just be fatigue from the viewers' side, as engagement through comments, polls, and community posts suggests otherwise.
• 05:30 - 09:30: Taking a Break and Planning The speaker reflects on a drastic decline in their channel's performance, noting that views dropped significantly as if a switch had been flipped. They note the drop occurred in February, after a successful January and previous year, leading to feelings of concern and uncertainty about the cause of the decline. The chapter underscores a tone of introspection and evaluation about potential changes in audience engagement or external factors affecting viewership.
• 09:30 - 13:30: Realizations and YouTube Challenges The chapter discusses concerns about potential changes in Google's algorithms influenced by political powers and the implications it has on creators' careers, including the speaker's apprehension about their own future on YouTube. Despite campaigning against such changes, the speaker feels powerless and fears for their career's longevity, unlike larger channels that might withstand adverse algorithm adjustments.
• 13:30 - 17:30: Efforts to Improve and Reach Out to the Audience The chapter focuses on exploring different theories related to YouTube analytics and performance indicators, particularly at the start of the year. The narrator shares personal experiences and thoughts on fluctuations in view counts and ad revenue, comparing them to broader trends discussed by other YouTubers. The most likely explanation, according to the narrator, is related to seasonal changes observed over several years.
• 17:30 - 20:30: Personal Struggles and Finding Enjoyment In this chapter titled 'Personal Struggles and Finding Enjoyment,' the speaker discusses their experience on YouTube. They mention that historically, every year in April, their channel's performance drops significantly. This recurring pattern leads to a theory that the decline in engagement, especially for trans content creators, might occur in March and April rather than earlier in the year, like January.
• 20:30 - 24:00: Plans for the Future The chapter titled "Plans for the Future" reflects on the uncertainty and unease in the world, suggesting that current global issues may be affecting people's willingness to engage with content on platforms like YouTube. The narrator speculates that many people, possibly including themselves, are experiencing what they describe as an 'endofear slump,' a period where fear and apprehension about the future may be dampening their spirits and affecting their social media interaction. This revelation appeared to the narrator about halfway through their reflection on the situation.
• 24:00 - 26:00: Engagement and Support Request In the chapter titled 'Engagement and Support Request', the narrator discusses a personal realization that by the end of March, it was evident that the upcoming month of April would be challenging. Recognizing April as historically difficult, the narrator made a deliberate decision to pause, conserve energy, and avoid the futile effort of trying to achieve success in unfavorable conditions. The focus was on avoiding wastage of time and energy on tasks unlikely to succeed, indicating a strategic withdrawal for better future preparedness.
• 26:00 - 29:30: Activities and Hobbies During Break The chapter titled 'Activities and Hobbies During Break' discusses the decision to take a break from uploading videos for 4 weeks. During this time, the speaker regrouped, planned for future content, and developed a new content strategy to address any existing problems with the channel. The aim was to approach the channel with a fresh perspective and better strategy for future videos.
• 29:30 - 30:00: Conclusion and Looking Forward In this chapter, the author reflects on their journey and future plans for their channel. They acknowledge a challenging period in February and March, where video performance was poor, which impacted their morale. Taking a break allowed for personal reflection and identification of personal struggles, particularly a lack of enjoyment in their work.

I Need Your Help Transcription

• 00:00 - 00:30 c guys guys and pals i'm Alice Wonderland and your favorite Qy trans girl and as you may have noticed I've been away for basically all of April and as much as I am loathed to break character I thought today I would talk to you as IRList because I think you deserve it all 70,000 of you fund me you support me you give me a motivation and a purpose to succeed in life and it's very humbling you've allowed me to quit my job and do YouTube as a full-time career which is just a prospect I never ever dreamed of having so today I wanted
• 00:30 - 01:00 to tell you what's been going on over the last couple of months and I'll preface this by saying that this isn't going to be the happiest video i really need your help now more than ever so I guess the tor and the short of it is that views on my videos and on my channel have been drastically down this year in spite of increased content quality and increased effort of production on my part um as you might imagine that's extremely demoralizing and the worst part is that I just have no idea why i pride myself on being able to identify my faults and improve and
• 01:00 - 01:30 make a conscious effort to get better but I'm really stumped this time i have a couple of theories first of course is the obvious she fell off you know people could just be bored of me if that's the case I mean what can I do about that except ask for your feedback what do you want to see me do more what in my content don't you like but something in my gut tells me that's not what this is you know responses on comments responses on polls and my community posts indicate
• 01:30 - 02:00 that nothing has changed in my audience and that leads me onto my second theory which is a lot more depressing you see it flipped like a switch my channel did really great all throughout January and all throughout last year but the second we got into February it was like someone flicked a switch and 40% of my views were gone now I wonder what happened in February now you see that worries me
• 02:00 - 02:30 that really worries me a lot because if it's true that Google's algorithms have been altered to appease this orange madman who thinks he's a god then what can I do the short answer is nothing obviously I'll campaign against that um but at the end of the day if that's what's happened my career is over maybe some channels could bounce back but I'm just not big enough to survive 4 years of that but at the same time talking
• 02:30 - 03:00 about that makes me feel like a conspiracy theorist you know and I'm not entirely certain that's what it is either so then we look at my third theory which I think is the most likely you may have heard about this before a lot of YouTubers talk about how at the start of the year they off views are down ad revenue is down etc etc i've noticed this but in a slightly different way so this is my third year
• 03:00 - 03:30 on YouTube and um every prior year my channel has absolutely bombed in April i don't know why April specifically but every single time just nothing goes right for me in April so at the moment my leading theory is that my start of the year slump maybe just the start of the year slump for trans content creators in general actually takes place more around March and April than around January and I'm
• 03:30 - 04:00 thinking this year maybe it's just extended because you know I if you think about it world's in a little bit of a scary place at the moment and maybe a lot of trans viewers aren't feeling happy enough to enjoy content on YouTube and maybe they're just trying to stay away from social media and things like that who knows what the reason could be but at the moment my leading theory is that I'm just in an extended endofear slump and basically I came to realize that around halfway through
• 04:00 - 04:30 March at the end of the day I realized that hey this is happening april is typically my worst month of the year by a large margin and so I just decided you know it would be better to take a step back and reather my energy than to continue throwing at a brick wall and hoping something sticks because realistically I know that nothing I was going to upload in April was going to do well anyway so everything I uploaded or worked on in April was going to end up being a waste of time a waste of production energy and
• 04:30 - 05:00 a waste of a good video idea and I'd rather save my good video ideas for when I think they have a better chance of doing well and basically that's why I've been away for 4 weeks is I was regrouping and planning to start uploading again in May i decided it was better to take some time off to take a step back regroup look at my options and look at my channel with a wider view and you know sort of make a new plan and a new content strategy going forward identify any problems
• 05:00 - 05:30 any anything just think about my channel and where I'm going to take it as well as of course taking a little bit of time for myself because I'm not going to lie that February March period where every single video was doing poorly it really sucks so I needed to take some time off and just try and get my morale back up you know and because I took a step back and disengaged a little bit I also managed to identify a few areas where I was struggling personally the biggest of these was that I just wasn't enjoying
• 05:30 - 06:00 making content i didn't really realize it until I stopped but I wasn't and there's a lot of re there's a lot of factors behind that chief of which is that you know it's really hard to be creative and fun and put on a smiley face when you know that this creative passion project you're working on isn't going to do well now I don't know if I don't know how much you know about being a YouTube content creator but YouTube has this stupid thing that's just designed to demoralize content creators you see this this little this
• 06:00 - 06:30 little two of 10 thing here if I open that up it gives brings me to this screen basically it's a way to compare and it is a useful statistic it basically it compares how your video is doing compared to the last 10 or the last nine uploads I suppose um and gives you a ranking out of 10 a 1 out of 10 means this is your your best performing video out of the last 10 if you get a 10 out of 10 that means it's your worst performing and depression ensues and
• 06:30 - 07:00 because of this February March slump that I was having every single video was at least a seven out of 10 usually an eight a nine and even a 10 out of 10 a couple of times and I didn't know why i was working really hard on these videos i was putting more effort into them than I ever had before i think you can tell like just the sheer scope of the editing you know and it's just like another kind of crushing to have a passion project like that
• 07:00 - 07:30 just be a 10 of 10 and you the fact that I was uploading weekly meant I had to you know I had to get moving i had to start working on the next video and so I was working on this next video while depressed about the last video and it was just a vicious cycle and I just couldn't find any enjoyment in my creative outlet it it wasn't fun another reason I wasn't really enjoying making content is that and I'll be completely honest with you here I don't really watch trans content essentially I wasn't
• 07:30 - 08:00 making the type of content that I would watch now that's okay i put my own spin on it you know I made it pretty fun and I did enjoy that aspect of it but it's hard to talk about it's just it seemed like every video I uploaded that wasn't something to do with estrogen or something to do with trans memes would just bomb and maybe I just didn't find the right video ideas that would um interest you guys but I always wanted to be a content
• 08:00 - 08:30 creator who happens to be trans i never wanted to be a trans content creator now I don't mind making trans content that's fine like making a trans meme video every month is kind of fun because I mean I'm not going to lie it's just memes in general at this point there's nothing about these videos has anything to do with trans memes and and you know that's that's fun once a month or whatever but it would be nice to also just have some you know normal videos that don't have anything to do with
• 08:30 - 09:00 transess do well you know and so that was getting me down a little bit i felt like I was pinned into a box essentially is what I'm trying to say is I felt like I was pinned into a box and I couldn't make the kind of content that I really wanted to make another couple areas where I was struggling is we're going into the you know cold and rainy season in New Zealand in fact you might actually be able to hear the rain outside if I shut up for a second don't know and it's usually around this time of year that I start getting really sick i generally struggle
• 09:00 - 09:30 a lot with chest infections it's a long story but they always knock me down and I've had this particular chest infection for seven weeks now and it's really driving me nuts man i just want to feel okay again another area of struggle is that with this slowdown in February and March my channel revenue is struggling a little bit um there's not much I can do about that except of course do the classic influencer thing
• 09:30 - 10:00 and say join become a member and blah blah blah um I'm working on more merchandise i'm live streaming every month again which is good because that's a big chunk of income each month to help me get by and the last thing I think I've really been struggling with personally as a content creator is that I think I have really good video ideas i think they're really funny and that I I get to put a nice twist on them but sometimes they maybe don't translate into clickability for example I really thought this was a shoe in to do really
• 10:00 - 10:30 well you know um but it was a 10 of 10 so I need to basically think of content ideas that are going to look and I I I don't I don't like this to be honest i don't like that my first thought when making a video idea is how is this going to look is this clickable i want to make good content that's fun i don't just want to clickbait and then work the rest out but you know that's
• 10:30 - 11:00 kind of what YouTube is these days so I've just got to work with it side note this video I said something about like you know if it gets 10,000 likes I'll post these LWD pics somewhere but um even though it was a 10 of 10 and it got like less than half the views I would expect a video to get you guys still got it to like 5,000 likes which is pretty impressive so I think actually if that had performed normally I would be in trouble so anyway 5,000 likes on
• 11:00 - 11:30 this video and maybe I'll post those LWS again but basically and going back on topic all of those factors left me in a situation where I was exhausted i wasn't enjoying my creative outlet and one month after taking a huge leap and going full-time YouTube my views almost haved completely without explanation so I was just kind of sitting here like "What the fuck?" Right so yeah I'm not going to lie things got a little bit dark there
• 11:30 - 12:00 for a little while my mental health was not doing very well as a result of all of this but of course I'm not the type to take things lying down and so of course I've been making plans and doing what I can behind the scenes to try and up my morale and make a good plan for success going forward i have to at the base level just proceed with the assumption that this is just an extended start of year slowdown period for me and it's not something to do with the big
• 12:00 - 12:30 scary orange man or me falling off if I start thinking about those too much I'll just spiral so I've got to proceed on the assumption that this will work itself out and that's what I'm doing as you might have noticed I've actually broken out my own whiteboards and they're full of like stuff i've I've made whole plans on them like brainstorming physically and i've been I've been doing some mastermind crap you know like I've been
• 12:30 - 13:00 sitting on the floor with my whiteboard marker like doing conspiracy theory figuring out what I can do to go forward and do a bit better um I've been thinking about collaborations i'm wondering who would be open to collaborate with me all that kind of stuff i want to see if I could possibly get hold of one topic but I don't know he's a lot bigger than me it would be fun though but yeah
• 13:00 - 13:30 you know I'm open to trying anything at the moment i've started filming things again um I've got a live stream next weekend just to remind make sure you tune in to that because uh that'll actually be my birthday live stream my birthday is on May the 4th and I'll be having a special live stream that day to celebrate we've got loads of cool planned we've got you know forfeit tables and a d20 dice so you can make me do really stupid things by membership goals should be super fun honestly I'm really looking forward to it don't miss
• 13:30 - 14:00 it it's going to be sick all right so my birthday's on May the 4th but obviously New Zealand is the foremost time zone in the world so for the rest of you it'll probably be on May the 3rd at some point you can check the date and time in your local time zone on my channel page don't miss it seriously if you miss it I will hunt you down and I will feed you to the Eldrich being that lives in my laundry room but in going back on track most importantly I need to know what you think i want this comment section to be full of constructive feedback please
• 14:00 - 14:30 what do you like about my content what don't you like what do you want to see more of what do you think I should adjust do you have any fun video ideas that you'd like to see that you think could make a good series or just a good one-off video i want to hear from you because at the end of the day I'm doing this for you answer that i can have an unlimited supply of pickles but that's a diff that's a different matter if you stopped watching my content you know why why did you stop watching my content was YouTube not serving it to your recommended or were you getting tired of me were you just not interested in the
• 14:30 - 15:00 type of content that I made was I being too vulgar and crass which is Yeah I get that and lastly of course I want to say that I'm not going anywhere all right i know this video might have been a little bit doom and gloom at times but I don't give up on you know I talked about this a little bit in my other video but basically the only thing I can claim to have is that I bounce back i get knocked down time and time and time again and I
• 15:00 - 15:30 keep getting up and I keep keep fighting and that's what I'll do here i'm figuring out what I have and haven't done wrong i'm making a plan and I'm going to keep going and hopefully we'll see some success i just need your help more than ever right now your memberships are keeping me afloat at the moment so thank you very much for that if you want to become a member you can hit that join button down below or you can actually um become a member over on Buy Me a Coffee same price same perks except you don't get the little badge
• 15:30 - 16:00 here on YouTube buy me a coffee just takes a smaller percentage 5% as opposed to YouTube's 30% so if you want me to get more bang for your buck you can go over there or if you just hate YouTube you know you still get members only content and um as for what I've been doing the last month well three things really um maybe four one of course I've been planning regrouping and strategizing on YouTube i've also been
• 16:00 - 16:30 terrorizing America cuz this new government they've got I'm not entirely on board with it and I think I would do a better job um three I've been playing D and D which is great oh my god you should check out my dice bag i haven't I hadn't played D and D since 2018 um and I found a new D and D group and I'm really enjoying it and this is my little dice bag it's super cute um and and look at this sorry I've completely derailed this video now look at how pretty this dice set is look at it isn't it cute oh my god
• 16:30 - 17:00 it's so pretty um they've got little blossoms on them this is my big D20 focus on it you can't there we go these are my other dice they actually have an eye in them but it's looking up so you won't be able to see that on this camera it looks up this way but it looks like a snake eye it's very cool those are really all of my interesting die anyway um where was I what was I talking about oh yeah i started number three I started playing Dungeon Dungeons and Dragons again which
• 17:00 - 17:30 was fun and number four I started playing guitar again which has been awesome i'm so glad I started playing guitar again cuz I really missed it yeah that's what I've been doing for the last month basically just been doing a lot of planning a lot of thinking a lot of strategizing and doing investing myself in a couple of hobbies just to get my morale up a bit so now I have been filming other videos again but um I don't know if I'll have the next one ready for next Monday i'm hoping I do i will definitely at the very least have a video for you the following week i also
• 17:30 - 18:00 keep in mind New Zealand's a day forward so my Monday is your Sunday i've talked about everything have I talked about everything is there anything I've forgotten oh I have forgotten something good lord