Suffering in the Wild

Summary

Joe Robinet embarks on a challenging wilderness adventure while grappling with a severe case of shingles and the grief of losing his brother Isaac. Throughout his journey, he battles harsh weather, relentless bugs, and a painful rash that worsens with each day spent in the wild. Despite these challenges, Joe uses this time to reflect on his brother's struggles and the importance of mental health. His journey is both a tribute to his brother and a testament to the healing power of nature, even when it seems to fight back.

Highlights

• Joe Robinet embarks on a solo wilderness adventure while battling shingles—a painful journey both physically and emotionally. 🌲
• The trip becomes a means for Joe to process his grief following the loss of his brother, Isaac. 🌌
• Persistent bug bites and worsening rashes intensify Joe's struggle, highlighting the unpredictable nature of wilderness adventures. 🦟
• Joe faces tough decisions about his route, often dictated by weather conditions and natural obstacles. 🗺️
• Through this hardship, Joe reflects on his brother's mental health challenges and the importance of seeking help. 💭

Key Takeaways

• Always prioritize health—Joe's trek emphasizes the importance of health and the complications of neglecting medical advice. 🏥
• The wilderness is unpredictable—Joe's journey highlights nature's beauty and brutality, reminding us to always be prepared. 🏞️
• Mental health matters—through the lens of Joe's experience, we see the essential need to care for mental wellbeing. 🧠
• Never take time for granted—Joe's reflection on his brother's life underscores the importance of cherishing each day. ⏳
• Adventure teaches resilience—despite adversities, each moment in the wild teaches perseverance and adaptability. 🌲

Overview

Joe Robinet sets out on a daring wilderness adventure as a way to cope with personal loss and stress. Armed with nothing more than a heavily laden backpack and his canoe, he ventures into the heart of the wild. Despite a severe case of shingles and an army of biting insects, Joe pushes forward, determined to find solace in the solitude of nature.

Each day in the wild presents its own set of challenges. Joe battles strong winds, relentless bugs, and multiple portages, all while dealing with the physical pain of his condition. As the adventure unfolds, Joe's emotions run deep, reflecting on his late brother and the impact of mental health on their lives.

As his journey nears its end, the physical and emotional toll on Joe is evident. Despite intense struggles, he finds moments of peace in nature and reaffirms his commitment to addressing mental health. Joe’s journey is a reminder of both the healing and hardships that come from confronting life's challenges head-on.

Chapters

• 00:00 - 01:00: The Diagnosis The narrator went to the hospital and received a diagnosis of shingles. Although they initially thought they had bug bites, the medical team confirmed it was shingles. They had to choose between treatment for bug bites or shingles, and they opted for the latter. The diagnosis explains issues with their eye, and they were prescribed medication.
• 01:00 - 03:00: The Start of Wilderness Exploration The transcript delves into the onset of wilderness exploration, intertwined with personal anecdotes related to health issues. The narrative highlights the speaker's experiences with frequent medical assessments due to severe migraines, which were potentially triggered by emotional stress following a sibling's demise. The doctors initially dismissed the symptoms as a rash from sweating, though the pain and stinging were significant, compounded by bug bites, adding to the discomfort faced during this period.
• 03:00 - 06:30: Battling the Elements In this chapter titled "Battling the Elements," the narrator reflects on a recent health issue that has impacted their ability to work effectively from home. They express regret for not seeking medical treatment sooner, as there is a risk the condition could affect their vision and hearing. Although unsure of the science, they mention the problem might be viral and stress-related, highlighting their frustration and lack of medical expertise. The narrator emphasizes the importance of personal research and understanding one's own health.
• 06:30 - 12:00: The Loss of Isaac The chapter titled 'The Loss of Isaac' unfolds with a sense of distress and adventure. The narrator expresses a deep emotional pain, mentioning a desire to 'soak my face in water,' indicating either physical or emotional discomfort. It's 1:00 p.m., and despite the challenging conditions of wind and smoke from surrounding fires, the narrator is determined to undertake a solo journey of 300 km. The chapter is marked by a tone of resilience and perhaps seeking solace or escape in nature, as they head towards Te Lake, intending to camp at 3 Mile. The environment and circumstances suggest a backdrop of turmoil, paralleling the chapter's title of loss.
• 12:00 - 16:00: First Attempts at Fishing and Camping The narrator begins their journey towards a marshy area, as marked on their map. They expected to cross it in 25 minutes, but it actually took them an hour and 15 minutes. Despite this delay, the narrator chooses to see this prolonged crossing not as a bad omen but perhaps as an unexpected positive occurrence or sign.
• 16:00 - 24:00: Unexpected Obstacles and Reflections In "Unexpected Obstacles and Reflections," the speaker discusses the challenges posed by unusual weather conditions, specifically mentioning a Northeast wind that is atypical for the region. This wind direction coincides with the speaker's travel direction, presenting unexpected difficulties. The chapter reflects on the impact of such weather changes on travel plans and daily activities.
• 24:00 - 33:00: Health Concerns Grow The chapter titled 'Health Concerns Grow' opens with a discussion, likely set to some music, indicating a growing awareness or concern about health issues among a group or community. The speaker assumes that some of the audience is already aware of the forthcoming concerns, suggesting prior exposure or ongoing discussions around health challenges.
• 33:00 - 43:00: The Struggle with Bugs and Weather The chapter titled 'The Struggle with Bugs and Weather' details an event where the narrator faced challenges related to their younger brother Isaac nearly being lost and their boat almost being damaged or lost as well. The narrator mentions being distracted, possibly due to these occurrences, indicating a stressful or tense situation. Furthermore, the narrator also had to travel to Windsor around 10 days ago, suggesting that the events occurred during or around this travel period. Overall, the chapter highlights themes of struggle and navigating unforeseen difficulties.
• 43:00 - 53:00: Retrospective Thoughts and Preparing to Leave In this chapter, the protagonist reflects on their recent experiences dealing with personal issues, particularly relating to their family. They express feeling lost upon returning home, unsure of what steps to take next. In an effort to find clarity and regain focus, they decide to retreat to the woods alone. This setting in nature is depicted as a place for solitude and contemplation, where the protagonist can organize their thoughts and emotions in preparation for what's to come.
• 53:00 - 60:00: Final Day and Lessons Learned The narrator recounts embarking on a spontaneous 300 km trip, despite experiencing a bad migraine and a stress-induced rash, suggesting a recent traumatic experience.

Suffering in the Wild Transcription

• 00:00 - 00:30 okay well turns out it's shingles freaking went to the hospital on the way home didn't even care about the stink and right away they're like oh that's shingles I said well it's bug bites on top of it they're like well we can't give you something for bug bites and shingles so pick one I said well definitely the shingles they said it's uh Quadrant 4 q4h I don't know what that means but she said it's boom boom makes sense and that's why my eye is jacked like this too they gave me prescription for a SI L hour
• 00:30 - 01:00 every 4 hours while awake for 7 days so there're going to be a ton of them um yeah and she said it was definitely brought on by my brother's passing and that my migraine was a precursor to that and what's funny is I went to the doctors beforehand before I left and they said oh it's just a rash you've been sweating she they said oh that's all normal so anyways it hurts so bad it stings so bad and I'm sure the bug bites on top of it are not he helping uh I want to take a
• 01:00 - 01:30 week um and stay at home and edit a few videos here uh I shouldn't have went out I should have got it treated earlier she said that they like to treat it within 72 hours and I'm a little bit late but because of where it's at the cute whatever quadrant my head it's at that it can affect my vision and it can affect my eye it's a viral thing it can affect my eye and my ear I don't know how it's a viral thing if you get it if I got it from stress but it is what it is do your own research I don't freaking know no I'm not a doctor anyways that's
• 01:30 - 02:00 the story freaking what I'm want to go soak my face in water that's all I can it stings so bad it's 1:00 p.m. I'm going to go do 300 km by myself it's windy and Smoke Filled from fires around here all right this should be an adventure making our way towards te Lake and 3 Mile be the camp for
• 02:00 - 02:30 tonight so I'm finally getting to the marshy part I can see where I started behind me on my map it says it should take 25 minutes to get across it's taking me an hour and 15 minutes some might take this as a bad Omen to start off but I choose to take it as a good jman you know one of them their Jo something that just happens
• 02:30 - 03:00 when I'm out anyway uh we'll see how far we get today see how Smoky it is it's a freaking jman butd normally we have a Westward wind uh and today we have a Northeast wind and that is the direction I'm traveling so good jman
• 03:00 - 03:30 [Music] well I'm sure some of of you have seen
• 03:30 - 04:00 the video by now explaining uh what happened I I lost my little brother Isaac almost [ __ ] lost my boat too holy smokes holy smokes anyways a little distracted here if you couldn't tell uh it was like I don't know 10 days ago or something and uh and I had to go down to Windsor which
• 04:00 - 04:30 is way far away from where I live now and and I went and dealt with all that with my mom and my family and uh and I got back back home and I didn't know what to do with myself so the only way I know how to get my head straight and think properly and kind of uh Center myself as just come out to the Woods by myself for an extended period of time so like I said earlier
• 04:30 - 05:00 this is 300 km trip I planned I just looked at some El gonin maps and Drew it up real quick and booked it and left um I would have left earlier but I've had a migraine very bad and actually know if you can see it here but I uh I have all this like rash on my head which I've never had before in my life never had a migraine is uh the doctor said is just from stress from like traumatic experience or whatever
• 05:00 - 05:30 The Grieving um anyway that's why I'm out here I want to try and do it in seven or eight days we'll see it's like it's a big trip my head's pounding and uh I don't feel right at all but um this is what I'm going to need to to make myself feel right I think so this one's for you Isaac hope you're
• 05:30 - 06:00 with me and uh you [Music] say it's nice to get out of the boat this is the first real Portage couple hundred meters gives me a break from paddling but uh I know when I get on to North te Lake here in a minute she's going to be windy not in my favor
• 06:00 - 06:30 [Applause]
• 06:30 - 07:00 well I had to get off that Lake for a little bit I need to eat something and look at the map and decide which way to go so I pulled up out of this campsite I've never seen such a big flat campsite before pretty awesome spot see it like what the heck what the heck it goes all the way up into my
• 07:00 - 07:30 freaking receding hairline oh man what's going on anyway snack was uh granola pepperoni I got a bunch of freeze-dried stuff got a really light bag for 8 Days majority of the weight is uh is food really really minimal on this on this trip okay let me show you what what's going on here
• 07:30 - 08:00 I put in way over here it's not even on the map paddled now I'm only here and my day end is supposed to be here so I can either go up this is the way that the wind is coming from remember coming from this way so I would have to paddle into a headwind a 295 so a 3K Portage and then down or paddle East
• 08:00 - 08:30 into here and then the wind should slow down I'm not going against the wind this way it's kind of it's not going with me but I'm not paddling against headwind it's kind of pushing me South anyways I'll get into here this will be protected and then from here on out into bigger it shouldn't be bad maybe a little bad here but it's narrower here and then I have to Portage up North to 3 Mile instead there's much more portaging this way much more but I get to break that the paddle up with portaging and and I don't have to paddle North whereas
• 08:30 - 09:00 here whereas here I do so I think that's what we've decided it' be nice if the wind just calmed down or went the way that I expected it to go
• 09:00 - 09:30 well if you're interested this is a really nice site on North tea Lake on the big island not too far in 6:00 getting hungry I'm going to look for a
• 09:30 - 10:00 spot to stop and cook supper and then I'm going to keep on going until uh dark till dark well I'm off the big lake finally onto this small little Lake system that goes into bigger bigger Lake but as soon as I got off the Portage into this smaller Lake where there's no wind the black flies are just there's mosquitoes on the Portage and now it's blackflies and they're just peppering me here so I'm going to have to get my uh little uh
• 10:00 - 10:30 corn Holio thing to put over my head so my neck and my ears get all protected other than that I'm pretty gloved up but uh there's a really really pretty waterfall right in front of me I've never been here before I've never accessed this oh man I think there's a bug bite in my nose access this um access point before I never came in here and never saw this so This is called twin balls
• 10:30 - 11:00 little bastards are crawling up my legs ah nice spot First cast nice Bast
• 11:00 - 11:30 I won't be eating any fish on this trip there's a fire band across most of Ontario I didn't bring anything to cook fish with my little uh uh propane stove so it is what it is but first cast oh my God
• 11:30 - 12:00 I'm all bug suited up now sto for supper I got my musk all and uh I need it it's it's buggy
• 12:00 - 12:30 buggy buggy buggy buggy AF even so my only exposed uh skin are my hands and my face I don't really want to get too much oh that burns yep don't want to get that on the little forehead there but um okay give me some reprieve for a second while I get my food on do have this too if I need it you'll
• 12:30 - 13:00 uh chill chill chill some bugs some bugs around all right I got my chili some Parmesan in there and all corn holy OED
• 13:00 - 13:30 up good good good got my inre here just sent will a message telling her at 7 o' well she knows what time it is now it's 7 o00 St for supper I'm going to pack up and uh paddle till dark after this back
• 13:30 - 14:00 up not much gear bugs though much bugs
• 14:00 - 14:30 beautiful spot all right on to the biggest Portage yet there's so many bugs so many bugs I got to go
• 14:30 - 15:00 getting a little dark in the bush a little dark in the bush oh it's so buggy bro bro
• 15:00 - 15:30 I need to set up camp this is getting bad boy I'm in my tent now oh that hair is crazy and there's uh just a million bugs somehow got in like just so many bugs got in and I literally opened the door for a second so this is going to be a lot of fun they're all black flies I have to get rid of them I can't sleep with them in here oh man look at them all oh there's so many how did that
• 15:30 - 16:00 happen oh boy there's so many bugs in here I just don't let them na on me while I'm sleeping I can't believe how many got in I I was very quick um I also added up what I did today I started at 1:00 p.m. and I ended at 9 I did 28.2 km and I did not get to 3 Mile I got to Upper Kawa which is one Portage away
• 16:00 - 16:30 from Three Mile my destination Lake so it just got too dark I couldn't go any farther uh had to get some reprieve from the bugs as well so here we are the only person on this Lake and tomorrow I'll get up and do that uh the big Portage into co uh 3 Mile and continue on so 8 hours today and I did almost 30
• 16:30 - 17:00 clicks so tomorrow I should be able to do like I'll shoot for 60 see what I can do but there's a 5 km Portage somewhere on this trip too man I got just peppered by bugs look so bad all right good night folks
• 17:00 - 17:30 see you in the morning oh oh no oh no what is happening to my face man this doesn't feel or look good at all it's 9:00 I could smell smoke
• 17:30 - 18:00 too uh I got up at five 6 78 and I just kept peeing and going back to bed my forehead hurts so bad I don't know what to do and my glands are swollen like crazy now this forehead thing really is concerning me look at that man that was before I came out here like it's not bug by
• 18:00 - 18:30 wait damn so I camped here on upper CWA and I can and I have to get this way so I can either go up three mile and do these couple portages into uh aab Maple and then down and over or I'm here
• 18:30 - 19:00 and I could just go down this way so there's a North Wind again I can see it and I don't want to paddle against it my elbows are kind of shot I'd like to have a a relaxing day or not paddling into the wind day so the choices would be obvious except for this low water levels in Alder can be a major problem between 1 mile and the 245 M Portage on Maple Creek in fact it hasn't been maintained in the last few years if it hasn't been maintained the last few years it may be impassible so one mile is here and the 240 is here 245 is there
• 19:00 - 19:30 so that's a good stretch like five clicks or so and there's a bunch of black portages along the way but it says as of 2013 this Portage was covered in down trees so this was written over 10 years ago and I'm going to cross my fingers and hope that somebody has come along and cleaned up the Alders and I know the water level is not too low right now so I'm going to give it a shot it's more portaging but it's a more direct rope and there's not paddling into the wind so I like an adventure I
• 19:30 - 20:00 like going off the beaten path hopefully this is that but hopefully I don't bite off more than I can chew looking better right getting back into where they said it might be impassible with low water and Alders and uh coming to the end of like my third Portage I've done well over 3,000 km 3,000 meters of Portage today 3 kilometers and I'm coming to the end of this one I can see what they're talking
• 20:00 - 20:30 about it looks pretty dry guys I'm sure I'll be able to skirt through in this little boat but any later on in the year probably not
• 20:30 - 21:00 it's going to be buggy for a bit for a bit until I get back out into the big water oh man I hope I can get through here
• 21:00 - 21:30 oh man this does not get used this does not get used I've been looking for bootprints and any signs of people ever since I turned off that Main Road into these black portages there's only been sign of moose no people
• 21:30 - 22:00 oh man this is going to be fun why did I do this why did I do this okay one stretch done that wasn't all terrible not too bad not too buggy either now we hike to the other part of the creek
• 22:00 - 22:30 okay not so bad just a down tree we can deal with that [Music]
• 22:30 - 23:00 oh this spot looks a lot more alery lot more Alders here than in the previous section I'm going to get rained down
• 23:00 - 23:30 with spiders on and spider webs and all sorts of fun stuff here lots of flying them BS you can see where people have come and trimmed them down so at least somebody's been here in the last 10 years so I think I'm through well I know I'm through the majority of it a couple more smaller portages to go one of them says that it was covered with down trees
• 23:30 - 24:00 um as of 2013 but for the most part I'm getting what I wanted like uh there's no wind in here which my elbows are jacked from yesterday battling the wind and yeah I'm getting to where I need to be without battling that wind there's more portaging in out the boat more some beaver dams but this is cool I'm glad I took this way and uh yeah I'm seeing more and more of the part work as we go
• 24:00 - 24:30 on that trip I did with Tosh earlier into the gyppos I never seen any of those part before for the most part oh there's my Portage sweet okay this is a shorter One 360 360 and then I believe I'm almost out so to do that little one and see about the down trees but feeling o okay my glands are all
• 24:30 - 25:00 together like they they're so swollen that the ones on my neck and behind my ear and like in between are all kind of just one big one so that's kind of weird but trying to keep the bug net on when I need to and covered up and stuff so been wiped my forehead with water too all right it's getting to be uh getting to be 1 1:00 so 24 hours from where I started
• 25:00 - 25:30 yesterday that's it oh oh boy
• 25:30 - 26:00 die that's rough man that's so rough ah oh there's so many oh boyo oh my gosh I don't like that stuff freaking mus go B holy smokes that
• 26:00 - 26:30 was rough okay well each time I get P Portage I'm like a it's not so bad and I get into the next one and then the creek looks like that so this would definitely be impassible in the middle of the summer in low water we had high water this year so and so only
• 26:30 - 27:00 [Applause] June this is reminiscent of birchcliff Creek Kyle okay we're going to do it big bull moose go on yeah big bull Mose cool old rck on him hey
• 27:00 - 27:30 boy chill for a second I knew I was going to come across one in here so that's three moose all together since yesterday the mom the calf and Big Daddy over here I can still hear him crashing he's big velvety antlers it look like
• 27:30 - 28:00 okay Birch Cliff 2 finding the Everglades right now are these mangroves holy smokes guys trying to eat a granola bar you know not even paddling I'm just pulling my way through on the olders she's shallow she's shallow with the fishy she's [Applause] shallow Oh look there it is all right I think we're out of the ish
• 28:00 - 28:30 out of the ish now oh back to Maple [Music] Creek never tried these ones the peanut ones before Nature Valley tastes like peanut butter surprise surprise lunch of Champions told you I was going to get spiders on
• 28:30 - 29:00 me oh that breeze feels nice for now wait till I get into the big lakes this is a rough trip already
• 29:00 - 29:30 that really wasn't too bad that was the one that was supposed to be a bunch of down trees there's only a couple okay we done we done that section okay we're not done that section yet most wa more spiders
• 29:30 - 30:00 nowo lots of things I don't know man if it was not windy the other way was a um no question no brainer much easier uh much more known but W weo here you know we here that's all okay I take back everything I said don't come this way do not come this way
• 30:00 - 30:30 period this is nuts I can see broken branches so I know someone oh my glasses I know someone else has come this way at least but it sucks like it's freaking thick man and shallow as heck man
• 30:30 - 31:00 ah oh oh reprieve reprieve oh my God uhoh this is exactly like Birch Cliff Creek
• 31:00 - 31:30 we starting to lose faith that this is even the way oh man this looks so grown over and just not passable at all holy crap now the creek has opened up a little bit which I'm very thankful for there's a little bit of a Sprinkle going on right now too too but nothing too
• 31:30 - 32:00 bad I got to be getting close to this Portage to get me off of this little creek and onto a proper Lake soon did I mention don't take this way don't take this way this is the aftermath and there it is one of the happiest I've ever been to see a poor Taj son
• 32:00 - 32:30 oh boy oh I fell it
• 32:30 - 33:00 So Graceful So Graceful for us a freaking swamp donkey nice five uh five moose two
• 33:00 - 33:30 days well we're in the open water again and she is windy got a massive headwind here oh boy well some things some things here I'm on Arab raas Lake um a could paddle into the wind anymore and I needed to set up and just take a
• 33:30 - 34:00 break uh the bugs are so bad that I had to set up my tent so but a couple things happened since then check it out I'm getting that whole uh black fly thing going on you can see it tracking up my leg again I got a couple good bites there and then it goes and it tracks up and this will track all the way to my thigh and I get this thing called blackfly fever so I even had my my um my pants tucked into my socks a whole nine yards and uh I don't know if you can see
• 34:00 - 34:30 back here but it's pretty bad the glands my forehead will just messaged me we're messaging back and forth on the in reach which I'm going to have every time now I wasn't bringing it before but now I have feel like I need to have it um she says there's an active fire on the East End of alonquin uh and I'm just uh I think I need to amend my route and get out of here in the next couple days because I don't have any pretone which is the the cure for for for that leg thing and my
• 34:30 - 35:00 glands uh and really my forehead's probably shouldn't be getting sweat on it and bug spray and the whole N9 yards look at this like it's I got a lot I got a lot so and bug bites on top of all that so uh I only did uh 14 km today but 5 kilm of that was portage so like yesterday I did almost 30 I did 28 km and only like 2 2,000 met of Port so I'm
• 35:00 - 35:30 zoned um I'm probably going to Camp the night here and amend my route and get out in the next night or two um and hopefully uh try to stay not getting bitten I had it down to a science man I don't know there's just so many of them right now that they're just getting in every little nook and cranny all the nooks and crannies but uh all right I'm going to just look at this uh this map some
• 35:30 - 36:00 more figure out what's going on been journaling and uh I just I think I'm done so and that's okay that's okay I'm going to look at the map figure things out like there's maybe it's just a sign just go like all these things are just just happening I don't know I'm
• 36:00 - 36:30 just busting through here it's what I wanted to do this is the type of trip I wanted just to keep my mind or keep my body occupied at least but it's not if it's if it's being detrimental to my body as well with all these things it's just you know what I mean all right it's like I've never it's so
• 36:30 - 37:00 bad I could feel how lumpy it is it was like bleeding [Music] earlier this is what's happening there too many bugs for me to be out there it's raining a little bit nothing crazy but uh I looked at the thing I looked at the map I'm going to either spend tonight and tomorrow night out here in
• 37:00 - 37:30 Bale on the fourth day or maybe just tonight and then do a big day tomorrow I'm not sure but I know I can't take too many more bites I think my eyes starting to swell shut you see that so I boil the water in this pot because it's fatter wider uh shorter wider and it it boils faster than in here and I also want to reh hydrate it in here because it'll be better for than in the tall one but I need a twoot
• 37:30 - 38:00 method so I boil in here I pour in there and I I doubled up because I have more food than I need now that I'm going to put it a bit shorter and every meal I put in there it's always not enough so that's quite a bit let's see if like it's too much or whatever but it shrinks down some usually does there we go yeah sh down quite a
• 38:00 - 38:30 bit oh Little Joe's big day it's going down good I'mma murk it destroy it disappear it
• 38:30 - 39:00 man I'm not going to get into it too much here if you want to watch the video explaining what happened uh the title is obvious it's on my channel
• 39:00 - 39:30 I just had a moment man few moments here I um I read all my text messages that I had from my brother and it dated back 3 years first one was hey this is my new phone number so there was previous messages before that we lost but um should have done something there was a lot of uh cries for
• 39:30 - 40:00 help a lot of um foreshadowing what happened and uh reading it uh was real rough he knew what was going to happen you guys got to uh take care of yourselves mentally and
• 40:00 - 40:30 physically and if you need help get it period if you had a broken arm you'd go to the doctors right and it's not that he didn't do that but he didn't stick with it and regardless even if he did like some of the Tex like f man why can't I just be normal like other people like the voices are so so bad I had to leave work um so he was literally just doing
• 40:30 - 41:00 it to to try to not hear voices and trip out it's not his fault poor guy had to deal with so much [ __ ] in his in his life in his young life in his head and he tried so many times handful of times even on that thing clean for 20 days clean for 10
• 41:00 - 41:30 days oh man I screwed up again blah blah blah and lots of encouragement for me lots of words but no action no no doing so you don't want to have any regret in this life I'm just going to I'm going to go to bed it's
• 41:30 - 42:00 um it's almost 8:00 I'm just going to lay here and think about my brother Isaac and try and um think about my future and kind of decisions I should make and uh he needed to he needed something to
• 42:00 - 42:30 happen reading that he needed he needed um a break from everything and uh one of the things on there fman I'd be gone tomorrow if I knew if uh if I knew it wouldn't mess you guys up in the head type thing lot of foreshadow [Music]
• 42:30 - 43:00 good morning it's time for me to start making my way out of here look at that it's not looking good at all my eyes shutting yeah and I haven't even checked out my
• 43:00 - 43:30 legs yet I'll do that now but I got to get close to the take out today and probably spend one more night and then head out tomorrow morning cuz I got to get something to combat this my head's pounding too well sometimes you make dumb decisions in life you know I shouldn't have came shouldn't have
• 43:30 - 44:00 came it's uh 7:45 my eye hurts so bad damn I can't take many more bites I got to get out of here well it's 9:30 I fell back to sleep this is getting worse I can barely open my eye
• 44:00 - 44:30 now oh man oh that hurts so bad okay I've got to get up I've been sleeping so much I think it's the blackfly fever I got to get up and move cuz I can't spend two more nights out here I got to just spend one more night and get out and go to the doctors cuz this is bad this isn't getting better it's getting worse my forehead hurts so
• 44:30 - 45:00 bad I don't even know what the freak it's all welted oh man so I feel extremely sick um my headache is in the front of my head on those lungs like it's inside and I can feel it on the outside as well whenever I exert myself not even sweat not even sweat just any kind of exertion and just goes to the front in those lumps and it's throbbing excuse me when I feel nauseous
• 45:00 - 45:30 and sick from the blad flight fever I'm really glad it's not a hot day today cuz I'm already overheating there's no sun out I need to get as close as I can to the take out today I don't think I can make it to the car today though I'm just I'm I'm I'm uh beside myself I I
• 45:30 - 46:00 feel so rough this is a bad idea this is grieving the only way I know how and it was a mistake I should have waited longer I should have waited longer until I was feeling normal again this bug bites on top of whatever that red cluster stuff was on my head it's not good it's not good at all so yeah I made a mistake and now I'm paying for it big
• 46:00 - 46:30 time right now I don't have that bad of a headwind and I'm heading west today so I'm hoping I still have an easterly wind for the rest of the day so I can get as far as possible till tomorrow and then the wind I looked at my sa phone or my my en the wind is going to switch back from the West tomorrow so I'd like to get like I said as far west as close to the car as possible today but I didn't start till it's 10:48 now
• 46:30 - 47:00 been on the water for maybe 20 minutes
• 47:00 - 47:30 today was fairly uneventful much less so
• 47:30 - 48:00 than yesterday and that's that's a good thing for me um I paddled a lot I Portage some had a few big portages it was mostly calm and that helped the wind was mostly calm today and that helped as well I got I got a decent amount of the rest of the trip done I'm on the the uh takeout Lake North tea Lake right now
• 48:00 - 48:30 it's probably like what is it 5:30 540 yeah so that's that um I managed to only get a few bites today yesterday went through that that thing was crazy but uh I'm glad to be here um I need to go to the doctor's my face
• 48:30 - 49:00 look at look at the the side of my face looks completely different than this side of my face like it's crazy and I can't just be bites right because like it would be all over my face I have bites on this side too all here but look at like this side of my face is just jacked Fat Joe on this side
• 49:00 - 49:30 no so what we have here is a mixture of spaghetti and pizza casserole pizza casserole is the whoop one of my favorites and it freeze dries amazingly that is going to be good
• 49:30 - 50:00 [Music] I really hope the wind doesn't kick up tomorrow it's Dead Calm right now I
• 50:00 - 50:30 could probably make it out tonight but it's too late like I don't I don't have it in me and the uh just time wise it's too late but yeah hoping tomorrow I'll get up early CU I got so much sleep last night I got like 12 hours of sleep last night um maybe I'll get up early and try and head out before the wind starts if there is going to be any
• 50:30 - 51:00 the in reach did say it was switching back to western western wind and that's the direction I'm going so maybe I'll go back in my tent and eat this this so buggy I was laying in bed thinking about a nighttime paddle it's 8:30 dirty and uh you know I
• 51:00 - 51:30 really do need to get over here as quick as possible my head is starting to really hurt from these whatever the spots are on my headit and um and the lake is glass it's so calm right now and I'm paddling Due West so everything just lines up right now for me to break down camp and uh start paddling towards the truck I highly doubt I'll make it there um I only got about a half an hour of light maybe 45 minutes total but I can
• 51:30 - 52:00 get that much closer and potentially not have to battle to win tomorrow I be out that much earlier and on my way to the doctors I'm about a 6our drive from home and I can't go to the doctors the way that I am right now just stanking so it's a whole ordeal and then uh yeah this is not the way this trip was supposed to go uh I did about 30 clicks today 30 the
• 52:00 - 52:30 first day and only 14 yesterday that beat me up yesterday quite a bit doing all those little black portages and going through the Alders and stuff but such his life I got some time to think about Isaac by myself and yeah I got some ashes I'm going to spread at one point but not here somewhere real nice not that this isn't a nice place just somewhere special off
• 52:30 - 53:00 of a cliff or into a waterfall or something just a pinch of them just a pinch just seems like the right thing to do my mom said that she wanted it had to happen so be nice
• 53:00 - 53:30 my head hurts so bad and it's going to be like they're not going to believe me at the doctors either like must I go back and get the same one I was at the clinic I don't have a doctor a nurse practitioner but was at the clinic about this but anyways they're
• 53:30 - 54:00 going to think it's all from bug bites certainly not a lot of it is but my face is hot the right side of my face is hot to the touch it's not good not good this bugs are Relentless even out in the middle of the lake here I've come down quite a ways put myself in a good position now I'm just looking for a camp it's
• 54:00 - 54:30 uh 9:30
• 54:30 - 55:00 well we are back at the second camp for tonight can you hear that crazy noises all right we're right next to the Portage we only have two small portages a little river section and then a small lake so I should be able to hear within like two hours tomorrow tops which uh which is good all right good night
• 55:00 - 55:30 folks she's coming down now by it's midnight and all is swollen good night that's bad 5: in the morning time to get out of here first light already started
• 55:30 - 56:00 to pack up it's been raining all night and didn't stop now it's a good time to make my move I'm on the first Portage out of here it's pretty dark pretty dark
• 56:00 - 56:30 [Applause]
• 56:30 - 57:00 it's starting to rain quite a bit all right she's full-blown raining now I
• 57:00 - 57:30 need to uh get to this Portage and get my rain gear on it's right here I'm getting drenched [Applause] [Applause]
• 57:30 - 58:00 [Applause] at least I didn't carry it for [Applause] nothing well I'm sure glad I decided to paddle for another hour or whatever hour and a half last night uh to get myself closer because I'm drenched already and uh uh yeah I'm ready to go to the doctor now ready to be done
• 58:00 - 58:30 so almost there another maybe I don't 45 minutes something like that [Applause]
• 58:30 - 59:00 H holy moosies well I'm finally at the take out Lake I think I can see the take out in front of me maybe a couple kilometers um I'm starting to think maybe that jman at the beginning was actually a bad Omen and
• 59:00 - 59:30 uh yeah anyways it was a trip it's definitely a trip thanks guys for watching I would just like to say tell your family and friends that you love them be good to one another don't put off what you can do today until tomorrow because tomorrow is certainly not promised to anyone stay good and I'll see you very soon soon thanks for watching guys love you Isaac